A Little Fable - Page 39

Thank you so much! You are all so wonderful! I am hoping that my labs & CT results will be available to me this afternoon...then I will know how urgent treating the lymphocele is...& what to do about my work situation. I am 5 years shy of retirement, but I think I can use my pension for a medical reason at my age...my boss hasn't liked me since she was hired, I am too outspoken for her taste, & I am very observant, & I document what I observe. I'd be better off, I think, taking Hexe's advise & finding something else. I'm going to work now, but I will PM those that have asked either tonight or Monday...& really, for now, we're good! My dogs are, if anything, a little chunky right now, as mom hasn't been out there throwing balls & sticks for them for a while, & all Dr Ansgar wants to do right now is crawl up onto my lap, lol! Thank you again, you are a very special group of folks! I am so very privledged to have your friendship! jackie harris

Hi Jackie
Sorry to hear you've hit another couple of bumps in the road. Your employers need a good kick in the rump.  As others have said you need to set them to the bottom of your list of important things, because all that is important right now are you and your human and canine family.....they (employers)  are worms......you are a phoenix.  And those of us that are too far away to send dog food can find other ways to help out too, don't think for a minute that we want to be left out!  You are strong, independent and so beautiful, even if slightly cracked  but please don't let that stop you from letting us make things easier, don't wait 'til things get rough. Smooth the way now you have enough bumps!
Shiny thoughts coming your way.

For Jackie and Ansgar: 



Holding you in my thoughts and prayers!

Jackie, Hello! I'm still waiting to hear from you! I won't let you off so easily 

I'm giving her until tomorrow. Then I will find her. 

Okay, now my lymphocele is back, twice as big as before, & causing mass effect in my abdomen...no wonder it hurts! I have to call my doctor and find out what they're going to do about it.
As far as dog food goes, we've been feeding Canidea all life stages for a couple years, I mix it will Merrick Bison when I can to add a little oomph to it. They like it, & they look good...even our EPI dog Bitty does well on this. But we are OK right now...we get our supplies from the local Pet SuppliesPlus, their prices are good, and they sell a lot, so the food stays fresh. 
My home is very modest, tiny by today's standards, just big enough for Carl & I, & our 3 GSD. 
I will give you my address, but most days I am at the hospital, so it's stressful to me to think that folks might be trying to find me as I'm seeking treatment..most days I'm not too attractive, nor is my poor little domicile....*sigh*!
i didn't start this thread looking for charity, I just needed some support, & you all have been so wonderful; just your well wishes are enough to carry me through...you all & my dogs....
My friend Sherry at work tells me I have too much pride, I should just let people help me 'cause it makes people feel good....but it makes me feel...beholden? Does that make any sense? And I know others are struggling too...and are worse off than me...ok I'm crying now...jackie harris

Jackie, it's not really that big of a deal, to us. I live in Chicago, so no chance of me paying a surprise visit;-). For me, anyway, I just think of myself in your position and how "normal" people don't think of the dogs like we do, and they don't understand the stress of worrying about taking care of them, AND ourselves. I would be up a creek if I were in your shoes. I have no one who understands my "dog thing." They wouldn't "get" that keeping them in the manner that I like them kept in would be a huge stressor. We don't know you in "real" life. All we know is your "dog side." Thus, if we can help you eliminate any worry where they're concerned, you can focus 100% on taking care of YOU. 

And yes, it does make people feel good to do something small to ease a burden on someone that they know would do the same if the situation were reversed. 

Thank you so much Jenni, for your understanding...thank you...jackie harris

I love you for your pride, and I love you for your strength, but sometimes there is a point you are allowed to ask for help.
Your friend at work is right, you don´t even need to ask, all of us WANT to help, and she is right again - it makes people feel good.
All of us do have our own history, several of us had to ask for help in the past, supporting each other should be normal without any moral obligations.
I am far away from you, but others are close by.
We can´t help you fighting against your disease, but we can try to support you, that´s not much, but maybe some things would become easier for you right now.
All the best to you
Susie

Jenni (and your friend) have it absolutely right Jackie.  No-one sees you as a charity case, but truly just want to help someone if they need it, for no other reason than that. I also understand the feeling of pride and/or feeling beholden. I also didn't get the sense that anyone was intending to pay you a surprise visit (and it certainly wouldn't be me LOL).I think people are far too sensitive for that, knowing that you have more than enough to deal with.  People want to help for only that reason, because they want to. That you can inspire such feelings unbidden (and maybe even unwanted :-)  should help you realise how special you are, and how people have taken you to their hearts.  We are here if you want us, but I wouldn't want to make you feel uncomfortable. .