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I have had PTSD since losing Missie T to DM.  I still cannot reconcile the fact that DM took her from me. I am beyond frustrated with the OFA. I am considering filing a law suit for fraudulent misrepresntation... I need help!

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I am sorry for your loss. I do however have an issue with PTSD being used for everything under the sun these days and taking away from people who have truly gone through things tramatic so much so that yes the death of a loved dog pales in comparrison. I love my dog, we are super bonded as my service dog and I am with him all the time and there are few things I can think of that would compare to loosing him and in breaking my heart, but it is not the same as people suffering through physical attacks that are brutal and almost to the point of death and or what our soldiers are enduring that have PTSD. I could not no matter how heart broken compare to what they have suffered with the loss of an animal to a disease no matter how much I loved the dog. I am sorry but I am finding this term being thrown around entirly to freely in the last two years and people have no clue what it truly is or means. No I am not suffering PTSD, but in doing search and rescue for years I do know, people with it, and am aggrivated it is being over used and lightened these days. Please just reconsider this use of it for what I feel is sensationalism for your cause?
 

Majorie,

I am so so sorry to hear about Missie T. My heart aches for you. I lost my Rem in April at 11 from hemangio and am still heart sore. The older I get the tougher the partings seem to be. I pray for the blessing of healing for you. Remember all the good things she brought into your life and hold tight to those.

Thank you for all your hardwork over the years on DM. I to am incredible frustrated by the bad science that has been foisted on us with this UNPROVEN Sod1 crap. I know of  clear dogs  who on death were necropsied and shown to have classic GSD DM. Interestingly my vet was telling me of a Boxer in his practice who tested clear but has every sign of having Boxer DM ( wh/ I personally believe is and can be shown to be different from GSd) and this vet has experience dealing with that. His frusration is the owners want to believe the test not what is kicking them in the face. Its all about the money that can be generated. I love it - they are testing breeds never ever known for ANY kind of DM and claiming some are affected!!!!!

I have a rather full schedule right now but please keep me in mind for the future as I would like to help out if I can.

Again my condolences. Missi was blessed to have you as her owner. Do you have a picture of her sweet face you could share with us? Take Care.  Beth

GSD Newbie- I find your comments to be extremely offensive and rude!  I nurtured Missie T through 7 years of DM. 7 years, everyday, of waiting for the DM bullet to hit the bone... I have not yet been able to return to my own DM message board, as I panic when I even think of going there. Emotional pain is every bit as real as physical pain, and if you cannot understand that, I truly feel sorry for you....I watch my GSD now with my heart in my throat.I watch every footstep he takes, always with a fear of what I could see, one day... To say I am doing this for a cause is just insulting, ignorant and downright nasty! You have NO idea of the pain I went through, having lived through it once before. I knew what was coming but didnt know when. I woke every morning for 7 yrs with an unsettled feeling, and then reality hit me  in the head, every morning, after the unsettled feeling that was vaugue upon awakening, became real.  If you dont think that leaves invisible scars, then you dont think! My dogs are family members, and the loss of my Missie T was not the loss of a *dog*. If you ripped my heart out of my chest, when I was walking down the street, it would be no more painful then living for 7 years, waiting for that DM bullet to hit the bone. I guess its safer in my own world. I dont need this crap.

Marjorie, {{{{HUGS}}}}  I hope you are getting some sort of counselling/treatment to help you deal with Missie T's death, and the PTSD. We all work through grief in our own time and our own way, but having a sympathetic ear does help. I went through two grief and bereavement courses after losing 3 family members in a 10 month period, and they did help me to deal with my emotions, and learn coping strategies. Still, the pain didn't go away. It just faded with time.

You are a very kind, thoughtful, generous person, and I hope you won't let one rude post send you back into hiding. You have a lot of knowledge to offer the people on this board. And helping others is often a good way of helping your own heart to heal.

Marjorie, we love you here. We understand your sorrow & anger. I am so very sorry for your loss & the grinding pain of watching a loved one go through hell every day, with no hope. I believe that time doesn't soften the pain, but layers over it until it becomes easier to cope with it. But sometimes it breaks through. And when if does it is just as raw as ever it was. Counseling is a good idea. And fell free to PM me, if you just want to vent. God bless you, & hold you in His hand. jackie harris

HI Tig,

Here is a pic of my sweet Missie T

She was just the best girl- she rolled with the punches and had a smile on her face, right up until the end..  I had to make the big decision, happy as she was, when she started panting a lot. I was afraid she would bloat and have to die, alone, in a hospital..The vet came to the house and she peacefully went to sleep... I knew it was coming when she didnt want to use her cart, anymore, as she loved going for her walks...

Yes, I have gotten help for dealing with the loss of Missie T. I had no choice. I lost 15 pounds, and I was skinny to begin with.. I developed diabetes, when no one in my family ever had that disease. Dr feels that the stress played a major role as stress plays havoc with sugar. Numbers are back down, now, without diabetes medication, and AIC has dropped as I learn to deal with her loss. Caring for her, I put stress fractures in my hips and back ( Missie T weighed 122 lbs and she was NOT fat!) , and I displaced several ribs. I had fractured my wrist while caring for her, but I wouldnt let them set it, as I wouldnt have been able to lift her. It healed badly, and on damp days, the arthritis that set in is awful to deal with. I will be selling my house in the next year. We purchased a house in Florida that is one level, because the thought of a huge flight of stairs and a GSD, is just too scary for me. The last 2 years of Missie T's DM, I slept on a miserable sofa bed, downstairs in our house. I just couldnt leave her downstairs alone. Like I mentioned, DM scares the crap out of me, and having a GSD, well, I guess one never knows.  A home with stairs is now out of the question! The trepidation is just too much for me...

I have lost other GSDS that I dearly loved, but I think it was the 7 yr battle, with DM, that did me in, this time...7 yrs, day to day, is scarring...MY life was on hold for 7 years...

HI Jackie,

Been thinking of you and wondering how you are doing. I hope and pray, well! You are an amazing person, and so full of courage.   I wish I could steal your attidue :) xoxoxoxoxoxo!!

Marjorie, I am so sorry you have been having such a difficult time. Since I lost my Shelby to DM last February I haven't been able to go back to the DM board either...it is a painful reminder of what Shelby and I went through. So, I can relate on some level.

 There is a very special bond that exists with a special needs dog. It is hard for others to understand if one hasn't been through it. Your life becomes consumed with caring for this precious innocent family member and then we have to say goodbye when their eyes are still relatively bright. It is all so traumatic. 

I do hope you are getting some help to work through this loss of your beautiul Missy T. Sending lots of hugs and also prayers for the healing of your heart.

Char