Dedicated to my baby girl Layla Von Boeselager - Page 4

Kelly & the other Faithful, it is not uncommon to have your departed loved one visit you after they have passed. I work in Hospice, and our families often come back in to talk to us to say that they have seen them, felt thier presence, been comforted by a powerful dream; I've heard stories of people finding things on top of thier dresser in the bedroom, that they knew hadn't been there before...things that were special to thier departed. The price we pay for love is grief, but I know our loved ones stay with us, watching over us, and I'm sure your Layla is watching you. It doesn't make it hurt any less, and time does not lessen the pain, as so many say, it just cushions it with other experiences. Take time, if you can, to just let it wash over you; remember to try to eat, drink water; avoid alcohol, try to sleep....try to stay open in your heart, and minute by minute you will get through the worst part. There will never be an adequate reason for her loss, try to focus on your memories of happy times. I personally think that we have a much stronger connection with our dogs, the ones we truely bond with, than with most people, and that makes thier loss all the harder to endure. I'm sorry for your loss. I wish there was something I could do...jackie osborne

That is the problem I am having right now. Not eating which is fine with me, and I can't sleep. I have been crying to the point where no more tears can come out and I have been hyper ventilating an awful lot. I want to thank everyone again for their words and prayers for my little girl, it helps to know that people on this forum care and understand what I am feeling and going through. Kalibeck is right, the pain doesn't lessen with time it just cushions it. The vet that I rushed her to has considered maybe a possiblity of her being poisoned, that is one reason we are having lab work done. We are also having it done because one day she was fine and the next she was gone. I feel more comfort talking about this here because me being the only animal lover in the family, they just don't understand why I can't simple move on and go about my business. Thank You Everyone for your words of comfort

Dear Kelly, if we'd have met right after Dylan died you'd have thought for sure I was headed for a rubber room and shock treatments. Even though I knew for 6 months he was dying, I was still looking for a miracle. Losing a dog unexpectedly is probably tougher to accept. Keep the faith; it just takes time.

Kelly I feel so bad for you, I can feel your pain as I too have been there. I really did not want to live when I lost my boy. It was very sudden as well, he survived a spleen opperation but threw a clot in the middle of the night. We tried to rush him back in but didn't quite make it as we are at least an hour from the vet. I also have had 3 scenerios with my dogs like mentioned above. With Tell, his mom,and his aunt. With Tell I was heading for bed and he was upstairs looking all bright eyed and so happy, I stopped and I am sure my mouth had to have dropped to the floor. He ran up to me and was going around me making little squeeky noises the way he did when I would come home. I reached to hug him and he was gone. But I know they wait for me as I them. I know longer fear death... all I can say is it takes time, lots of it and it seems to go so slow. But someday you will remember your girl without tears but a smile will pull at the corners of your mouth. Hang in there the best you can.

Dear Kelly, I am sorry your family doesn't understand. Grieving is a hard enough process, let alone when your family trivializes your feelings. I sure have been there and it sucks. I lost my Zorba in a fashion similar to what Blitzen says about her Dylan and I too was devastated. There is nothing to do but get through it at your own speed. If ever I can help or if you need to talk, feel free to send me an email. Sue

Kelly, There will never be another to replace her but please don't make my mistake and wait too long to move on. Bless you GODS PUPPY I will lend to you for awhile, a German Shepherd pup, God said, For you to love him while he lives and mourn for when he's dead. Maybe for twelve or fourteen years, or maybe two or three, But will you, 'till I call him back, take care of him for me? He will bring his charms to gladden you and (should his stay be brief) You'l always have his memories as solace for your grief. I cannot promise he will stay, since all from earth return, But there are lessons taught below I want this pup to learn. I've looked the whole world over in search of teachers true, And from the folk that crowd's this earth I have chosen you. Now will you give him all your love, nor think the labour vain? Nor hate me when I doth come to take him back again? I fancied then I heard you say "Dear Lord Thy Will be Done," For all the joys this pup will bring, the risk of grief i'l run. I'l shelter him with tenderness and love him while I may, And for the happiness we've shared, forever grateful stay. But should God call my Shepherd back much sooner than I'd planned, I'l brave the bitter grief that comes and try to understand. If by my love I've managed, your wishes to achieve Memories of him I loved, will help me while I grieve, And when my faithful bundle, departs this world of strife, I'l have another Shepherd Pup and love him all his life. Author unknown.

ProudShepherdPoppa, Thank you. What I don't understand is what mistake did you make by waiting to long? My very first GSD that I ever owned, I lost going on 4 years, do to a blown disc in the back of his neck. He lost all walking functions and the surgery was not guaranteed that he would walk again, He was almost 10 years old. I have not gotten another GSD as of yet. My Layla was never sick, and the first time I could tell something just wasn't right I took her into a vet clinic (the only one that was open at the time)and she died the next morning. How long is to long to be able to move on? I am trying to come to terms that everything happens for a reason, but it is very hard to do this under the aboved stated. I am having problems because her passing was a sudden shock, it wasn't to where I knew long before she was going to pass, it was one day she was playing and the next she was gone. I couldn't have asked for a better female and protector of this family. As of now, I have been debating on even going on with my kennel, because she is a big loss to me. She loved being a mother and she was damn good at it too. She was always full of life, a constant buddle of energy, never slowing down even at the age of 8 years old. Before she even got sick (about 1-2 months)I have already made plans to get a pure DDR pup from someone, and that is still going to happen, because I don't go back on my word, and it is unknown because the breeding has not taken place yet. I know even when I get this new pup, I will still and always be grieving the lost of my little girl Layla, as I still do with Neko. I do want to thank everyone again for your awesome support and beautiful poems as well as putting up with my blubbering. It does show how this forum can have such good and kind hearts in the time of need. Thank everyone also in letting me talk about my little girl, I believe it does help me more being able to get out on how I feel and what I am going through since my family doesn't feel the same as I do about my fur coated family. I will never ever replace her or forget her. Sorry for it being so long. With all my heart Thank You