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Hello friends  :)

Just wanted to stop in and let folks who've wondered where I've been know that I'm hoping to have time and energy to read threads and post here again, albeit sporadically. 

Haven't participated here at all since Cece's recovery from eye surgery.  I'm used to living quiet, calm life but the past year was a real hurricane of events.  Going to put this in chronological order...

 

Jan: my uncle passed away from Melanoma at James Cancer hosp.  (I was visiting him regularly there while my dad was also getting treatments, my dad and uncle had same radiologist so even occasionally saw each other in that office.)

Spring:  Cece my lil chihuahua/rat terrier mix had her eye infection and members from this forum were incredible in donating to pay for her surgery,  Cece is continueing to do fantastic and her life has been very happy since surgery.  

May:  Had surgery myself, involving cartilage and skin grafts

June:  one of my dear friend's husband passed away from Lung cancer at James Cancer hosp.  I had also visited them several times when they were at hosp. and got him his last Wendy's burger before he went downhill and passed. 

July: my dad passed away at James Cancer hosp. from Prostate cancer, it was a long battle and many many difficult downward slides, stage 4 prostate cancer metastasized to the bones is one of the worsts, most painful cancers to endure.

Aug: saw members of my dad's side of the family I hadn't seen in 20+ yrs, it was a very bittersweet family reunion, I'm very glad to have seen them again.  Particularly my half-sister, I hadn't seen her in 19 years.     

I also had to move all mine and my dad's stuff out of the house we'd lived in and he'd rented,  I moved to family's mini-farm an hour away,  first time in my life ever living outside the county I was born in.  

Sept: my half-sister decided she wanted to reconnect with me and get to know me as a sister, she moved in with me here in Ohio all the way from Oklahoma.  

My boyfriend of 2 yrs decided to break up with me because I wasn't ready to move 9 hours away to his home, nor wouldn't be ready for a year or more...he decided he really needed a gf who lived much closer.  (he was LEO K9 handler)

My best friend miscarried her first pregnancy, she and her husband had been trying for 2 years.  (good news is she's pregnant again and just in her 2nd trimester) 

Oct:  My grandpa (mom's dad) and my only surviving grandparent passed away, my mom and I made multiple trips to and from MI to see him, so thankful I was able to see and talk with him before he passed. 

Nov:  Urman, my baby boy (Urma v. Quartier Latin) was put to sleep at home, in my lap after swift downward slide from cancer.  I couldn't afford diagnostics to discover what exactly it was, but my veterinarian believes it was some kind of cancer affecting his brain,  he never showed any signs of pain, his appetite and digestive system was good...but his cognitive function just left him, unable to process simple familiar words/commands and walking in circles, getting lost in the yard and just looking so confused and lost.  I had scheduled his euthanasia a week ahead of time, the day before the vet came he went into a coma-like state, just sleeping, not responding to anything physical, sound or smell.  His heart and breathing were good, well within normal, but he was just not there anymore.   He's been cremated and at home in an urn.   He would have been 11yrs this Feb. 

Dec:  A friend suffered severe brain injury on Christmas day, I had volunteered multiple times with an organization he and his wife run and I had been with them on Christmas Eve.  He was removed from life support Dec. 30th and passed away. 

 

So...I'm done with death, hoping for a moratorium on anyone I know and am close with from dying for at least 5 years or more.  I'm done with cancer and OSU James cancer hosp. too, I hope I never have to step foot in there again.  I want things to go back to normal, no more injuries, infections, cancers, nothing bad.  

I'm working on getting back to normal, moving my life forward, I've new job, taking classes again in school, new boyfriend (local business owner) and my dogs I still have are in great health, plus I'm hoping to be a brand-new Godmother this summer.  Really hoping/looking forward to life being positive this year with lots of good things.  

Just FYI,  OSU hospitals, including James are wonderful wonderful hosp. with excellent doctors, nurses, staff.  I'm very very thankful we had them available here for my family and friends to receive treatment,  I do believe they went above and beyond and would absolutely recommend OSU to anyone,  but...just hope no one needs them.  

 

 

Boy when it rains it pours, sorry for all your losses;  I agree time for you now and more happiness and great days ahead.  Welcome back.  Nan

holy sheet, you have been thru more than enough, it is a wonder you are still standing, all that would have crushed me into oblivion.

whoever you are, glad you are starting to participate in things, all the best for the future.

 

pete

Welcome back, Euroshepherd!

As someone who has been down a similar road (lost my father, mother AND husband, all within a 10 month period, then had to say 'goodbye' to the GSD I'd had all through my marriage before the years was over) the best advice I can give you is be patient with yourself. This WILL take time to get over. There is no 'statue of limitations' on the grieving process. Expect to have times when some simple act, memory or heirloom will trigger a memory, followed by a flood of tears, and pain that is nearly as fresh as the day the person left this planet.

It WILL get better with time, but it also takes time. Heck, my husband has been gone ten years, and I teared up the other night, just thinking of selling the canoe we'd bought when we were together. It's only been in the water once or twice in 10 years, but the thought of parting with it still nearly rips my heart out! 

So sorry for all your losses, terrible time you've had, things can only get better for you I hope. Chin up, dust yourself down and welcome back, look forward to reading your contributions here.

Welcome back, EuroShepherd. May you be blessed with brighter days after navigating through so many storms.

Welcome back, I missed you. Hope this and coming years will bring you happiness and peace. I lost my mother last year, she passed away in November. Welcome back.

 

Ibrahim

Sunsilver I taught you were a man you scolded me a few times. lovely post you sound like you have a good  hart all the best Matt  

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